ANGRY MOMMY ON MOTHER’S DAY!

I just feel my heart wringing sadly and feeling injured today…….

Written by Miss Yellow

I realized my son is already 10, but for past 10 years during mother’s day, I received nothing during past 10 mother’s day from the person who pestered me (including his doctor brother did that, he said women after 38 would be difficult to conceive babies) to become a mother.

   
   I only have such awakening when I moved to meow city when I mixed with those "professional tai tai", then I began to believe in one’s fate more than Jesus could do with my life, because I realized no matter how I prayed to Jesus to bless me a good husband, I ended up just like those feng shui guru foretold me, “You will have a husband who won’t love you a lot, but just so so…”

   
   Just listened to those tai tai of what they received during mother’s day from their husbands, I wouldn't get jealous, but the first thought came to my mind was I would sigh of how thoughtless was my husband. These women would tell me usually they received the most expensive gifts during mother’s day and their birthday. I would realize how unfair is this world when one fate’s is based on the time of your birth, your star and palm lines, obviously God made the constellation to designate our individual fates too, and then designated the feng shui guru to foretell us our fates!

   How true? There is a Datin that I know of, this Datin dresses up humble, she doesn’t have an air of a Datin, actually her younger sister looks a lot prettier and could dress-up better than her, but the minute they approached a very famous feng shui guru in Sibu town, the feng shui guru without even looking at her palm would tell her, “You will never have problem over spending money, you have plentiful of money, but your sister won’t have the good fate like you.” True enough, just a few years later the Datin became a Datin, but her younger sister’s husband had an affair, mistreated her badly, she has to work as a clerk to support herself and her children. Then there is another lady friend of mine also went to see a feng shui guru before she was married, her good fate was so good that feng shui guru even wanted to introduce his own son to her. True enough my friend’s husband do very well nowadays and treat her very well too.

   
   Actually ladies could escape bad fate if they truly believe in fate, like my case I didn’t believe it, now I regret it badly.These days I would interpret it this way: Not all ladies have such fate to be married and have good husband and obedient kids, if you don’t have such designated good marriage fate, that’s mean you shouldn’t get married, usually you would find no man was interested on you even you could be very pretty and very succcessful in your career. Or those men you met would give you all sort of difficult time or even abused you.
   
   So why you have to follow what other women  did and submitted to their bad gossips? I bet some of those stupid women even if they had bad marriages they would still want you to get married. BUT if you remain as a single you will be  self-satisfied, no so worry and happy.

There are two kinds of nasty husbands who never give any appreciation "in actions" to their wives: First kind is the cash-poor husband, but because he is a very proud person, he will act very mean to his wife if she mentioned to him about mother’s day celebration, he would tell her, “You have to wait for your kids to grow older to celebrate for you! I will go to celebrate for my mother!”  Two years in a roll, these words came out from my husband’s mouth. Another kind of cash-poor husband, but not so mean, would tell his wife, “I love you with my heart, why have to celebrate?” Both of these men’s wives would never receive any appreciation as a mother throughout their whole lives, all because they were poor and stingy. Only when these women's children grow older, perhaps they could make their poor mothers smile by then!

  

Some lucky women live without realizing how unfortunate other women live, they always thought that it was due to the faults of those ladies didn’t treat their husband nicely, kindly and lovingly, that’s why their husbands didn’t treat them nice in return, they childishly thought “give and take” would work on all men!
  

   Sometimes those lucky women could be quite mean to  bad fate women; they thought that when a bad fates woman complains to them about her husband, they might even guess that she was interested to look for another husband …. They would think she wanted to replace her useless husband for a better and richer one. In some occasions, those lucky women could be quite mean, they would  introduce a divorced man to the bad marriage fate's lady and asked her if she was interested in him, ended later when they heard the man insulted her as an “aunty”, were they satisfied of their mean act? Actually they all "made fun", played the poor woman up! So bad marriage fate women have to be very careful of who are their listeners!

   In this world there are full of people or women are not being treated well and equally. I could earn much more than what my husband could give me, yet I was convinced by my husband to quit my good job just because he didn’t want to fly or drive a long way to see me in the north, another good excuse he told me because he didn’t like to see me bringing the kids flying here and there, but the kids actually enjoying a career mom more than a jobless mom, their hearts could feel how hurt, nervous and injured as I am.

  

Actually these days I hate festivals, birthday, mother’s day or wedding dinners, when I opened my closet, I looked at all those old faded clothes and accessories,  it would also hint me that my husband doesn’t love me enough, and worst when I found I was fooled in many things when an old aging short man wanted to convince a girl ( I was tall and not ugly ok!) married him! If you say I am materialistic then it is also very unfair to me, do you think a relationship can last when there are just few good words and good things, but the marriage already lasted for 10 years, I can tolerate and accept my own bad fate and own wrong decision in life, buried my past 10 years in jail – family jail. Give and take? It's a bullshit to me!

   So young ladies, if you can’t find a good man in life, don’t rush for it, and if you reach over 30 and still not finding any good man, just forget about to become a mother. Go on your life, save enough money touring around the world, or else if you get married badly to a chauvinistic stingy man no matter how rich, he would lock in a cocoon, you will end up like me, there will be no trip, no freedom and no good luxury kind of lifestyle. You would be in his "random kindness" free disposal! 
  
   Do you know that when a man reaches his 35+ he will look down at those ladies who are over 30 years old, his friends, his family members and himself will together “play”(make fun) you up if you express an  interest in him? He will “hang up” himself to sell, but he didn’t know that those younger girls that he was interested to marry of amongst one of them would actually call him as “UNCLE!”